I am remembering who I was. (Part 7 of 7)

anita wing lee

Dreams & d e s t i n y.
There is more for us.
God is restoring the dreams and visions that were in my heart when I was a teenager, at the brink of adulthood.
But now they are stripped of my adolescent expectations,
of trying to plan out my career and secure my future. 
I fully exchange this dream world
of ambition, self-glory and gratification
for this real world of grace and mercy
sacrifice and love
freedom and joy:
The World of God.
So, a new chapter.
Like the chapter that came before it
and became the pages of Home Is Oceans Here,
I allow this journey to cleanse me.
I’ve found parts of me
SO b r o k e n
I could never fix them. 
They can only be made new,
and God is making me anew. 
My human mind will never fully fathom the mystery of life, 
but I have a compass
for navigation: 
Revelations of the heart
that surface in silence.
When I give myself space to hear from God
I receive a peace and clarity that supersedes my human journeys.
s o f t e n i n g more.
I have forgotten who I was
I’ve forgetten who I was trying to be
and I’m remembering who I always was: 
a child of God.
I am being called into a season of obscurity
a season of letting my ideas and my soul mature gradually,
letting my life take shape without haste. 
Instead of forcing me to be today
what God will make of me tomorrow. 
a season of pressing in deeper
with the Heart of God.
I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ. 
Philippians 3:8
Part 7 of 7

writingAnita Wing Lee