The nature of God. (Part 3 of 7)

anita wing lee

I’m flipping through the book of Genesis. 
It never dawned on me how often God presents himself through nature
and the master of Nature.
Thunder.
Pillars of Clouds.
Brighter than the Sun.
Splitting the sea. 
Calming the storms.
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I can see it now: My ongoing pursuit and adoration for nature was the GPS of my soul, directing me to God.
I just didn’t call it God. 
In fact, there was a period 2 years ago where I couldn’t even utter the word God.
The concept of “God” didn’t make any sense to me.
I didn’t want to hear anyone talk about it.
I eventually came to prefer the word universe.
Many pieces I’ve written here on Instagram refer to the Universe. 
But now, I know the difference. 
I can F E E L the difference.
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So in January, I started to study the Bible and it all came trickling back in.
These were the stories of my childhood.
I grew up in the church.
But for the first time in my life,
I could see it all with fresh eyes.
This God doesn’t just exist in the universe.
He C R E A T E D the universe.
He can control every detail: the winds, the storms, the traffic lights.
And he made me. 
Me: Anita Wing Lee, the 27 year old in 2018. 
He designed my race, culture, family, my personality,
my era, my generation,
every facet of my Life. 
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This is strange to me. It’s all new again. Lifetimes ago, I got upset about some church drama and I took it out on God, casting the whole ‘religion' thing out the window
along with the dreams I had of serving Him.
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"If this church and this God can’t help me, I’ll find my own way.”
Or so I told myself.
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Part 3 of 7 💛
"In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.” Genesis 1:1