Who was I before all of this? (Part 2 of 7)


Who was I before all of this began?
What are the parts of me that I cannot even change?
I am Canadian. Asian.
A member of the First World.
I will never be able to change these things.
They are part of my DNA whether I like it or not. 
Long before the days of social media,
I was also a Christian.
I was born into a family where my parents are Christian pastors and I would never be able to change that this.
So what will I do about it?
Will I fight this my whole life?
I had no intentions of welcoming God back into my life, 
I’d also been fighting God for a long time...
What if I put down my sword and shield and pressed into my divine purpose?
What is the real destiny for “Anita Wing Lee”? Not the one my ego conjured up, 
But the one God clearly had in mind when he made me. 
After I finished everything that I felt I was supposed to do for the book in January 2018, I could sense the next step:
Now it’s time to listen to what you wrote about.
Follow your own advice, Anita.
I had to listen to my Spirit, the Voice of Truth within
and be willing to lay everything else down,
No subversive motives or intentions.
Just pure obedience from a pure heart.
The signs appeared
and they all pointed me in one direction.
I knew I would be staying in this city for a while.
I knew that I needed to find a church and sow myself into it. 
I also felt like I needed to read the Bible again.
So I flipped open that ancient book. 
I haven’t opened my bible in 10 years?!
I read this thing constantly growing up,
Oh. My. Gosh.
I don’t remember reading t h i s
"You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed."
I felt it in the depths of my soul.
I know its true.
There’s a reason I am still here.
Part 2 of 7